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"Although you will still have to be disciplined and master your craft, God can supernaturally empower you to accomplish things within your profession that are humanly impossible" Jim Laffoon. I never thought i'd see America have a black president, politics aside i didn't think it was possible, not in my lifetime. its written that God gave Daniel and the three boys knowledge and understanding of all kinds of literature and learning.

These young men had lost their homes, been separated from their families, they were being held captive in someone else's land. They had every reason to believe God had abandoned them... if it were me i'd be depressed and in my bed thinking about how wronged i've been, asking God how he could allow such a thing to happen or how terrible i must have been to make him punish me like that.

The young men were picked to be trained to serve the king and offered food from the kings table that they knew had been defiled and they refused, choosing to eat vegetables and water. So this is me in a cell after being taken away from all my comfort, sulking, then i'm offered things i know i should not indulge in... I'd be thinking clearly God has abandoned me, and you know what maybe this is his way of making it up to me, why opt to suffer, those rules don't make sense anyway, maybe he wont be so mad, i can repent later.

I know for sure if it were me I'd be stuck feeling sorry for myself, I'd be focusing on what was taken from me, what i didn't have, i would have taken the option of temporary satisfaction to make the hell i was living in a little bearable..

So the young men live in obedience and God makes them better, brighter and more superior in intellect than anyone else in that land. Its amazing that God gave them knowledge and understanding so as to put them in a position of influence where everyone could see their faith and eventually the whole nation was transformed by it. They weren't born with it, it was given to them. I'm reminded of Moses and his inability to speak and God offered to give him the ability and he refused.

I'm one who's used my personality and my limitations as excuses not to do something, I'm beginning to realise that it doesn't matter what i think my talent isn't, God can take what i have and multiply it to take me to where his word needs to be reached. God anoints his children in every profession, from scientists to actors to elevate us to a level where people can see him through us, but many times like Moses we say no, i cant..

my name is

I hate insect of all kinds, i do not discriminate but the one i loath the most is a cockroach; I would rather move than live with roaches. Last night i begin to fixate on a what i would do if there was a roach in my room, it got so bad i dreamed about it, i could see the thing.. my faith in its presence got so big and loh and behold what do i see the next day catwalking into my room... A HUGE ROACH!

I've always known that fear works the same way as faith, it made me think of the things i've feared their way into my life. since my last blog i've been thinking and doing research looking for men and women today who would stand head to head with the greats of the bible, those who deserve to be called the sons of God revealed. i found quite a couple... i wasn't in it..

The first thing that the Babylonian's tried to take from Daniel and the three boys was their name. i've let my name be taken away from me several times.. the name i got not because of the great things i've done but because Christ died for me.. i am a son of God. I am the son of a God who took mud and formed blood and veins and organs and made a body that scientists still look at in wonder only understanding a fraction of it.. Many centuries later Christ would make mud out of spit and make someone an eye from scratch, then say he has given me the power to do all this and more.

The modern day Babylon tries everyday to take my name from me because to strip me of my name is to strip me of my faith. so now i take the time to remind myself of who i am every moment..

your God is too small

Are you more concerned about your own comfort than the dying salvation of the world? My reaction when i read that question, guilty. but the worlds problems seem too big and un-fixable, all its problems lie with its people and it's a hard job to try and change the attitudes of people.

This world is in need of the God of Elijah, Moses, David, Israel.. People ask where is God today, but God's always revealed himself through his children, so the better question is where are the sons of God? God never changes but we have; technology, science has become what we put our faith in, even when we pray, we hope for a God to work through a means we understand. Sometimes i feel like we've reached the read sea and instead of praying for God to part it we pray for money so we can build a bridge across, we pray for engineers and architects who will do the job in yrs, its so much easier than asking God to part the sea, it doesn't make sense even when we know he has done it before. God hasn't changed..

The earth is moaning waiting for the revelations of the sons of God.. i never really understood that verse but then i think of the global warming issues, the effects that science tells us is irreversible, there is nothing we can do about the damage that has already been done and i wonder... I saw a preview the other day for a movie that said what would you do if the world was coming to an end, and they showed this huge tide wipe out this building making its way towards what i assume is the world..

We've seen the drastic effects of the earth's moan, yet in the bible we are told of a man who through the power of God lifted his rod and the waters obeyed and parted. Men who told the rain when to start and when to stop. The son of God who looked at a storm and said peace be still and it obeyed. Could it be that the earth is waiting on the sons of God to speak to the tsunamis and tell them be still, to speak to the floods and the droughts and the hurricanes, to speak to the land and tell it to bear fruit. God hasn't changed

The thought seems like something out of a movie, but Christ said that we shall do greater things than he. The future of our country doesn't lie in politicians and self help teachings, and positive thinking, it lies in the sons of God being reveled to show who God is in all his glory..

your will be done?

When in college my campus minister prophesied that he saw me in a vision dancing in front of a crowd, i thought he had his wires crossed on this one. I was in training to become a lecturer maybe go into research but my dancing days were long gone.. About five yrs later i'm practicing to dance in front of a crowd..

Walking in your destiny always sounds like the most glamorous thing, most people are aspiring to know why they were born. "before you were formed in your mother womb i knew you", this are words that i have read with envy several times as i wished my calling come with such clarity.

Few chapters later Jeremiah is frustrated and distraught because his calling has lead him to severe beating, everyone hates him and he curses the day he was born. There many times when i think of the things i gave up to do what i know is Gods will for my life especially when I'm in the grind of things.. I think about Jonah at the bottom of the whale's belly or Elijah at the mountain fleeing for his life, or John the baptist in the desert eating locusts..

Thoughts like those make me really wonder if i want Gods will in my life, for real coz I'm not that strong, i cannot touch let alone eat a locust, hell i cant be in the same room as a locust. I'm still working on understanding where asking for my hearts desires ends and your will be done begins..

I think about where i would be if i'd stuck to my plan and sometimes i miss the predictability and security in that plan.. deep in my heart i always know the only place I'll really be happy is in his will..

no wories for tommorow

When i started recording music i counted all the songs in my notebooks that i thought were worth recording, the best of me.. i wondered what would happen when i was done recording them, would i have material for another album or would that be it.

Interestingly enough of all the songs i've recorded so far have been new, stuff that has been flowing out of me that i can only say has been given to me. Every time i think of doing a song form my notebooks something else comes to me and i put them on hold, till now i'm no longer worried about what i will sing about in the future coz i know it will come to me.

Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself.. that's a difficult concept to grasp, we've been taught our whole lives to live for the future. I've always looked at what i have in hand, see how it can take me to where i want to be.

I imagine the disciples the morning Jesus performed the multiplication miracle, the number of people are increasing, the darkness in approaching, they probably call Judas to check the accounts, do the math and it still didn't add up. Of course it would be unwise to use all the cash in the savings to feed these people it wouldn't be enough. But the whole time Jesus went on without a care in the world, he did his thing and when time come, the disciples looked at what they had and told Jesus throw in the towel man, we cant afford it..

I think of where i want to be and sometimes i don't have anything in hand that can get me there, but seeing that what Jesus multiplied he got from the crowd, it wasn't something they had on them. It gives me comfort that when the tomorrow comes he will find the resources necessary to take care of the need before me..

the storm is real

I don't know what i would do without Christ in my life because then i wouldn't have a reason to hope. It doesn't matter what stage of life i'm in there's always a need to hope for a better tomorrow. Of course when things are going good hope comes easy but when things are going bad, really bad, knowing that there is someone all powerful who already has a plan for you, and has worked out your way out into somewhere great gives you a reason to have joy and peace in the midst of a storm.

Today i sing in front of a multitude of people and the ones that i hope to reach are a group of children from a children's home in a slum in Nairobi with a message of hope. Preparing for the two min message before the song ended up being a message to me. Sometimes you have to fight to have hope, i understand the disciples as they woke Jesus up in panic when in the middle of a storm that seemed like it was going to kill them.

The most interesting part about that story was that the fact that Jesus was in the boat didn't stop the storm from coming, the threat to their lives was just as real. they had good reason to be afraid, they were in the middle of the sea with a boat about to capsize and the man they put their faith in didn't seem to be aware of the situation, didn't he feel it. How could he sleep through all the noise and the water splashing everywhere.. But then he gets up, wonders why this guys are panicking when they have him with them and one word and the storm is over.

When we have Christ in our lives going through a storm is like going through a roller coaster ride, you know all the safety measures have been put in the place and even when the ride puts you upside down you know your not going to fall because the manufacture already factored in the safety protocols to make sure no harm comes to you and the after a while, the ride does come to an end..